Gackt's History
Gackt Camui learned from a young age that he wasn't like everyone else. He saw things differently and he could do things that many others could not. Anyone who looked at him would think he was a regular human. But Gackt wasn't mortal. He was a halfbreed vampire, born of the union between a vampire and his mortal mother.
Gackt started asking questions, and his mother confessed that the vampire wooed her, impregnated her and vanished without so much as a goodbye. Gackt hated being what he was, because as he grew into a young beautiful 18 year old man, he was forced to watch his mother grow old, withered with age. She had died of old age in his arms. That truly broke him, because being a halfbreed meant he didn't have the ability to turn others. If he did, maybe he could have saved his mother from death when she was young. For most part, Gackt was angry at his father for leaving his mother alone.
While she was alive, his mother forbade him for looking for him, telling him "I don't want you to live in hatred." He wanted badly to find and kill his father, but the happiness of his mother meant more to him. Now she was passed away, the one thing keeping him from going insane was the thought of finding him and getting him to answer for what he'd done.
Gackt also learned from his young teen years, that he was gay. He had always found himself staring at guys rather than at girls. His mother also knew, and had loved him nonetheless. He has never found anyone he could fall in love with, though, and guards his heart closely in case of getting it broken.